What what? What's that spell? D-U-N?! THAT"S RIGHT FOLKS, AUSTIN IS DONE, AUSTIN HAS GRADUATED! Well... not really. 1.5 more years. If' I'm lucky. But I AM done with finals. Finally. Yay. My circuits final today reopened my wounds from my other finals. Yeah, completely chafed raw. Oh well, thus goes the life of a Tech student. So... France in 9 days! I can't wait. I picked up my study abroad stuff the other day... Europe has a crazy extensive rail system. There's like an encyclopedia of all the different train schedules. It's mindboggling.

The Six Ways site disappeared. I wonder if they're moving to their new home today... interesting.

Oh yeah, sorry for the annoyingness of the song playing in the background. And for you 56k'ers... I'm terribly sorry for eating up all your bandwidth. But at least if you don't have this song yet, you will by the time it finishes playing... just find it in your cache somewhere. Yeah, I just jacked the code for if from one of my friend's webpage. And I set it so it only plays once so that it's not infinitely annoying. And... maybe I should make the player visible, but it wouldn't jive with my webpage. I don't know why, it just wouldn't. Are you questioning me? So the first song I had up was Weezer - "Butterfly", the second song I had up was Alice in Chains - "Heaven Beside You" from MTV Unplugged, and the latest song is obviously Alice Cooper - "SCHOOL'S OUT"!!!!!!!!!

So this Friday, maybe I'll join some of my boys for some hot Pink Pony action... As well as have our possibly last band practice at Under the Couch. And go catch X-Men II aka X2 with other people. And get fucked up with yet another group of people. Dangit, I can't decide what to do. Definitely band practice, cuz that'll be an allnighter. Awesome, pulling an allnighter on the last day of finals. But everything else is up in the air. We'll see. Probably not getting fucked up though... don't wanna mess up band practice... and I'm taking care of that tonight... maybe. OH oh oh!! Tonight, we finally finish up our hanglider we started like a month and a half ago. I can't wait to crash and burn.

Those random bars crossing my doorway... that's the frame. It's been sitting exactly like that for the past month et demi. I'm used to climbing over it now. It rocks. It's time to rock out on my guitar. I've been deprived for too long...

AFI's website is cool.

      I hate statistics. Stupid finals. One final down, 2 to go. France: exactly 2 weeks. Motivation to study = 0. I should start on my 20 cheat sheets for tomorrow's thermo/fluids/heat transfer final. Yes, that's correct, we get TWENTY cheat sheets, front and back for our final. One for each chapter we studied. Overwhelming amounts of information? Obviously. All I need is a C in this class, so it's a good thing I have an A going into the final. Oh yeah, currently, my GPA is a 3.5 based on the fact that I'm totally done with 2 classes, ID3104 (I miss that class already) and INTA1100. So I got a 100% in the graphics class, my first in any class in college! And INTA... yeah, that's embarrassing. I had a C going into the last test/final. So I needed an 84% on the test to get a B in the class. Of course, since I actually studied, what did I get? A freakin 108%. There was mad bonus, of course. Two point curve, 2 points for attendance, and a max of 10 points from 5 bonus questions on the test. I know I missed at least 2 of those bonus questions, so I'm guessing I missed about 1-2 questions. What the fuck? Why didn't anyone tell me that if I actually studied, I'd do fine in this class? So it ended up that if I'd gotten 6 more questions right on any 1 test this whole semester, I'd have an A in the class.

Listen to Taking Back Sunday's "The Blue Channel." I'm addicted to it. Yeah, the vocals are totally emo, but whatever. The beat and intro are incredible. Ooh, Alice in Chains - "Heaven Beside You." And Boyz II Men - I'll Make Love to You." Yes, that song goes out to YOU. Stop procrastinating. Study.

      Yo. I'm bored. Yes, I have a Pikachu figurine in my mouth. I have a prob/stats final tomorrow. I can't wait to kick it's ass. Hence, I am wasting my time yet again. Uhh... I hate finals week? I hate finals themselves definitely. But the week... nah, finals week is a good thing. It means the end of all that school bullshit. I get to start anew. Especially this time... France, here I come. Yay. I'm gonna spend so much money traveling and whatnot. I can feel the hurt already. Oh well, once in a lifetime chance right? Tell that to my parents... they're already sort of overwhelmed with the money I've already put into it for the schooling portion. $4000+? Daaaamn, I could've gotten a motorcycle with that. Well, almost. Anyway... I'm compiling a list of firsts that happened this semester. Yes, good times, bad times, everything. However, since the current semester has not concluded (5 more days!), I shall continue to compile until it's over.

Hey, you know what's a good song? Weezer - "Butterfly." Very poignant. I guess. Albums in rotation: Six Ways - "Horseshoes and Hand Grenades" (I think they renamed it to "Too Late to Try"... but who knows what it'll end up being... 2 years and counting since it was recorded and mastered...), The Used self-titled, Taking Back Sunday - "Tell All Your Friends", Red Hot Chili Peppers - "Californication", Led Zeppelin - "IV", Norah Jones - "Come Away With Me", Finch - "What It Is to Burn", Linkin Park - "Meteora". Old school jams on da 'list: Def Leppard - "Pour Some Sugar On Me", Bangles - "Eternal Flame", Wham - "Never Gonna Dance Again", Black Sabbath - "War Pigs", Divinyls - "I Touch Myself", Primitives - "Crash", Scorpions - "Wind of Change", Bonnie Tyler - "Total Eclipse of the Heart", Aerosmith - "Dream On".

A picture is worth a thousand words?... final thought for the evening:

(Ladies and gentlemen, presenting: Lindsey Vuolo!)

      So finals are closing in... Prayers are at their all time most desperate. Did anyone see Madonna's perfomance of "Like a Prayer" in the MTV studios the other day? That was interesting. Not really. Supposedly she hadn't performed that in like 13 years. Well, according to Carson Daly she hadn't, but can we believe anything that comes out of that boy's mouth? So in watching the performance, it's no wonder she never performs it... it really isn't that great of a performance piece. At least I can picture nothing in the Madonna realm of performance that would fit this song... but that's just me.

So today in Prob/Stats, some dude shows up late to class, and kind of hurries to his seat, recklessly tearing a path through everyone to get to the center of the room with careless disregard for his trailing backpack. If you know about the lecture hall in the IC, you know what I mean. If not, then... ok the tables are long long tables that stretch from 1 side of the room to the other with swivel seats anchored to every leg of the table. So to get to the center of the room, you have to squeeze through a narrow-ass walkway behind everyone in that row. So anyway, with his backpack, this dude smacks another kid's open-top cup filled to the brim with coke and spills it everywhere. A few seconds later, a happy feeling comes over me... I was like "what the... *stupid happy grin, drool drool* mmm, alcohol..." The "coke" was actually coke and rum. Awesome. Yeah, so the fumes spread everywhere. It was great. I was hoping, since the spillage was directly the row in front of me, that I'd get buzzed from inhaling the fumes. So I took a bunch of crazy deep breaths. Yeah, didn't happen. I just got really lightheaded and started seeing spots (I'm way too easily amused). Oh well, one could only hope. Anyway, that's my amazingest story ever of the day.

So this update is a crazy ultimate turbo super giant power bandwidth eater... Four huge pictures, averaging a hefty 80kb a piece. The first one is my biggest project of the semester in ID3104. We had to model any object we so desired as long as it wasn't too easy, or beyond our skills. Oh yeah, I think I've been through this before. Anyway, here is my COMPLETED project. Ya like?

The next 3 pictures are the collages I made for our graduating members of FSA. Kham, with his incredible foresight, gave me this project to do around 8 or 9 the night before the day he wanted to present these collages. Heh. It only took me a few hours though. Only thing is that the frames that go with the collages were made for portrait-oriented pictures. No one realized this until after the fact, but it's all good. So... coincidentally, none of the graduates are Filipino... Anyway, David, from France, is the first one. Dude, this guy was a guitarist in a band as an undergrad France. He played Metallica! Christophe is the second graduate, also hailing from France. He taught me some French pickup lines/insults in preparation for my seige on France this summer. Yes, mostly un-kosher phrases... hehe... you Frenchies better watch out! And last but not least, Dave, one of the most randomly funny people I know, is graduating. I'm so sad. The semester is almost over. Everyone I know probably won't see me for 8 months. Summer, I'll be in France. Fall, I'll be in Cali. Mood song of the moment: Incubus - "I Miss You." I've made a lot of friends this semester. Just when I start feeling close to them, I have to leave. Lame. Ok, complimentary mood song to the aforementioned: Siam Shade - "Tears I Cried."

Ok, you know that song that plays at the end of Meet Joe Black, Finding Forrester and one other movie no one can seem to name... aka the perfect credits song? You all NEED that song in your life. Download it. Yeah, so I leave you with that song, Israel Kamakawiwo'ole's "Somewhere Over the Rainbow/What a Wonderful World." Rest in peace Mr. 800 lbs. Hawaiian ukelele player.

     If you can guess what song that line above is from, I'll give you slap in the face. Wait, I mean... I'll give you a dollar. Slapped into your face. Then in your stunned state, I'll swipe the dollar back from you.

Soy milk. It does a body (healthily) good. Vitamilk brand soy milk. It does a body well. Uh... what? I don't know. Vitamilk is the best soy milk in the world. Imported especially for me (and others who actually do the importing) from the beautiful kingdom of Thailand, they have refined the soy-to-sugar ratio into a pure sweet liquid dream, packaged into a convenient glass bottle. All they need now is to use twist-off caps instead of those old school bottle opener-required caps. Man, my dad used to drink this stuff as a little rascally runt running around the streets of Bangkok. I wish I could be doing that right now... running around the streets of Bangkok.

Next webcam picture(s)... my cool-ass LED headlamp thing! I love it. It was actually my sister's, but she didn't want it so she gave it to me. My sister is the coolest. I love her. :) ok, I didn't mean to be corny, so moving on. Now I can go camping and biking at night and... use a white LED headlamp whenever a situation requires it. So... white LED's are relatively new technology. Seems that scientists had a problem with creating a technologically useful LED that gave off blue light... Oh well, they finally figured it out in the form of a gallium-nitride based blue light-emitting diode created with two-flow MOCVD technology (I like trying to sound smart, it throws people off... heh). By "they," I mean one under-funded Japanese dude who nobody really paid any attention to for about 10 years. I love stories like that. Well, except in this case, his company fucked him and got the patent and rights to all the technology required to make it. I hate that. Fuckers. Let's look up this dude... aha, his name is Shuji Nakamura. The corporate fiend is Nichia Corporation. Oh well. Oh yeah, in case you're wondering where that flood of knowledge came from, I actually read about the history of the blue LED one late late night a few months ago when i was too lazy to go to bed. Sad, I know.

Another thing I'm proud of in a twisted way... my FSA "I don't remember who I danced with" award! Yes... maybe I shouldn't go into that one and leave everyone wondering... It's just a result of me being dumb, yet again. But look at the pretty drawing... the mirrorball even has glitter glued on it to make it look shiny!

Oh, I'm using Dreamweaver to edit this right now... It's actually pretty good for finding coding errors. Thankfully, I only had syntax errors, I think that's why Netscape doesn't like my webpage so much. I used to be adamant about hardcoding in Notepad cuz HTML was way easy and I didn't need any help with it. But my website keeps expanding, and it's becoming harder to keep track of everything... anyway, Dreamweaver can create Javascript stuff and whatnot with a few simple clicks. Awesome. I need to see what else it can do. Whut.

     Yo yo yo kids, whut. I wanna be like Luda, yo, whut. Arrrrhhh! Hehehe... ATL peeps, have you see that Braves baseball commercial where Ludacris "raps" the classic "Take Me Out to the Ballgame"? Riiiiidiculous. Such a horrible commercial. I don't even want to start cuz I need to get to bed. But before I go, Behold! My amazing super Fender, modeled by yours truly with the bitch-whore of a 3D program Form-Z.

Yeah. Sweeter than honey on a... yes. If you notice, you can see through the speaker grill... nice effect, eh? How aboot the nice tolex texture, eh? Yeah, I'm gonna put in the speakers later (maybe), right now it's still a work in progress, about 80-90% done. But I'm so proud of my baby... I'm glad I could almost convey her true beauty, as close as I could.

I'm surprised how well my control panel turned out. I know some stuff needs some alignment adjustments, but overall, I'm very pleased, ya'll. Anyway, peace out, it's knockout dream time.

     Let me tell you why today has fucking sucked:

1) I didn't get any points back on my INTA test.
2) I went to statistics and realized I failed the test. Oh wait, I already knew that since i only attempted 2 of the 4 problems.
3) The grade distro on the stats test was 50-59 = D.
4) I need a C to pass stats.
5) The FUCKING FIRE ALARM IS STILL GOING OFF. wHY CAN'T THEY FUCKING FIGURE OUT HOW TO PULL OUT SOME WIRES AND SHIT?
6) About 3:15am, some jackass pulled the fire alarm.
7) Form-Z has crashed on me more times today than all Microsoft products put together have ever crashed on me.
8) As a result, just today I've lost about 3 hours worth of work. Yesterday I lost 2.
9) My contacts weren't available today, since one of them had to be special ordered. Why couldn't they tell me that BEFORE I made the 30 minute hike in the COLD SIDEWAYS-FALLING RAIN?!
10) I had to make that same hike back home.
11) Oh yeah, IT WAS RAINING AND COLD AND WINDY AND COLD.
12) I'm still at Tech, that should be reason enough to have a shitty day.
13) i have 2 weeks until finals.
14) I hate Form-Z.
15) I had to wait 2 hours to get a haircut. Yeah, I could've left, but then what if everyone else in front of me wasn't there when their name was called?
15) I had no cold apple juice waiting for me in the refrigerator when I got back from class.
16) I had to do circuits homework, none of which I understand. Nor did I attempt to understand it. That might be my problem... but that's beside the point.
17) FUCK! The fire alarm just went off AGAIN! FUCK. Oh, good, just a false alarm. Incompetent stupid alarm-resetter people.
18) I'm hungry.
19) It's almost 4 'o clock in the fucking morning.
20) I just realized my major graphics project is due in 5 days.
21) My bandmates are becoming restless with practicing, since it's probably been a good 3 weeks since we've done anything together.
22) Oh, let's expand why this day has sucked to why this week has sucked.
23) I blacked out a few times this past weekend, not even realizing I was at that point. And I know I wasn't. It's like it's easier and easier for me to black out now with alcohol.
24) The alcohol didn't even fully hit me until I got home from the club.
25) I failed my stats test. It was the first time I ever sweated during a test, or even felt panicked.
26) I just realized I have 2 number 15's, but I'm not gonna fix it 'cause it's just one more thing to be angry about.
27) I have no designing skills.
28) I don't know how to use Illustrator.
29) Form-Z is a big fucking shit fuck.
30) I just wasted precious sleep time to write this rant.

It's good to vent right? I almost think I feel better. Yes, writing about stuff definitely helps. Good suggestion from a good friend. Therapeutic. Ooh, I just found my magic eraser that I thought I'd lost...

     I i finally got around to fixing my webcam. And I'm up late again doing jack shit, being worthless as usual.

I seriously need to reevaluate my priorities. And my life. And my future. Will I even have one...

     One of the most beautiful and fulfilling moments: When a girl looks deep into your eyes, as if looking through you, looking at something deeper, and a small satisfied smile stretches across her face. She notices you catching her looking at you and her focus turns onto your eyes. Her smile knowingly widens... You smile back, and at that point, all that exists in the world is the eternally locked gaze between those pairs of eyes.

     holy crap, i was retarded last night. i really didn't think i could type like that... well, at least i really didn't think i would ever not notice all those mistakes... and reading through it, i had a few moments of clarity where i could type correctly for a little while... like it came in waves or something. and i, of course, still have yet to finish my circuits hw, start studying for my tuesday stats test that i was supposed to have done last week, start my stats homework that's due on test day, blah blah blah.

uh... we were supposed to have band practice today. but i can't. fuck. too much work. i hate tech. my grades are all backwards. my highest grade is my 3d graphics class, then next highest is ME3720, then comes circuits, then intro to inta, then stats. the intro to inta is what dumbfounds me. how can the grade distro in that class be so high, yet i have a C?? yeah yeah, save your comments. at this rate, my gpa for the semester will be 2.9. AND i'll have to retake prob/stats. oh wait, nevermind, i think i have a C in that class... ok, my gpa will be 3.1. fuuuuuck.

i can't wait until summer... only 2 classes: random signals, and art history II. so yeah, a crazy hard class and (hopefully) an easy class. it still will be way better than this semester. 5 weeks. until school's out. 6 weeks until france. meaning 4 months and 1 week until i hit up cali. i'm starting to almost dread going to cali just cuz i hate relocating. i'm not taking a car nor my computer cuz that's too much to deal with. except that i NEED my computer otherwise i'll die. we'll see. my sole mode of transportation will be my trusty mountain bike on the urban streets of L.A./Fullerton. there're mountains north of L.A.... i'll have to ride up there to hit up the trails. i need to find me some downhills. so i can almost break my shoulder again. sigh. i haven't taken my bike off the wall in so long. i wish i had time to go riding. i think i can hear my bike crying herself to sleep every night from my neglect of using her. or... maybe i'm just being weird.

dang, it's sunday.

I need a break from everything. it's all moving too fast. I wish i had motivation. i wish i had determination. i wish i had goals. i'm lost. i want to be inspired.

\m/ ::aural inspiration:: \m/
rhcp - under the bridge, pink floyd - comfortably numb, pearl jam - nothing as it seems, jimmy eat world - hear you me, autopilot off - missing the innocence, lynyrd skynyrd - tuesday's gone, boxcar racer - i feel so.

     whoa. this is ectrememl y dumb og me. i can barely even tyep. jesu.s. wahteever. people who know me areladey think i'm dumb. but yeah, i can't go to sleep right now cuz i have stuff in my bloodstream. yes. bad stff. oh well. further dissapointment to all who know me. not that i'm depressing right now or ahnything. i swar. i'm all good. except for the fact that i'm really tired and drunk. shit. i can't go to sleep like this. what teh fuck .cultureshock tonight was good... amazing turnout. we didn;t even have enoguh chairs. even though i can't promote worth shit, 3dot productions got it taken care of for us. i rule at dancing. except i suck. a lto. damn, at least eevoryone could see that i suck . hopefully they realized it. i don'tknow why. whatevern. i can' ttyhp eanmore. good night ya'kk/

oh wait... after an hour long shower, i think i'm good. excpet for the fact that i can't feel my fingers tstill. suck. ok, shit, im representing myself horribly right now. i swear i'm not a drunk. ohly when i drink, am i drunk. damn yo, this is like hte perfect nevereneding buzz... except i iwant it to go away so i can sleep... i guess i shouldn't ave taken that last shot of stolichnaya gold that now one saw... fuck. i am a fucking drunk. i need to stopp drinking. it's fucking me up. my grades have gone down the shitter. well, at least my prob/stats grade. i fucking hate that class. i don't know why everyone says it's os easy... it's not. i;m almost to the point of respecign IE maojrs. almorst. i need sleep. look at me... worthless. i hope this code shows up... teach me a lesson to never updated my website in such a state... peace out my asian peeps. or white peeps. or black peeps. or black/filipino peeps. whatever.i win.

     Hey. I'm a punk. Hey, I feel exposed without my hat. My beautiful punk (ok, it's emo) b-ball cap. I can't live like this. Like, all I want to do is make music. But I can't. I suck at writing. And I suck at playing. So I'm doomed to never excel at what I love the most. I hate it. Music is my only motivation for anything. And I'm deprived of contributing to it. Or maybe I'm just too impatient to sit down and practice. That's what I need to do. Crap, this is hard... it's almost 3:00am, and I'm so used to typing improperly on AIM now that I can't capitalize anymore. Shift key... what's that again? ok... here we go, the anti-capitalization era has begun. i rule. look... i, i, i. cuz i rule. ooh... i spelled it "cuz." cuz i'm a badass like that. grammar cops, bring it. i'm such a dork. whatever. late night delirium has hit once again. too tired to move, too lazy to go to bed. fake insomnia rules. anyway, here's what's being going on in my life:

titofelix is a very good filipino rock band that actually got there start right down the street at emory university. wow. i can't get enough of the song "what went wrong." such a simple song, direct and forceful in meaning, but softened by the melodic flow and soothingly constant rhythm. barebones acoustic guitar and vocals.

jinxpack played a free concert here last april on curran deck with six ways and 15 minutes late. but unless you were one of the 5 people that showed up, you probably didn't know. hailing from chicago, these punks basically kick ass. i don't know why, but i actually thought they sucked based purely on their live show. but but but... i gave them another chance, and i actually enjoy their stuff. either my tastes have changed, or... ok here's what i think it was. they had such like really nice equipment for their concert that they probably tried to overpower each other soundwise, and instead ended up sounding like shit. ok, i shouldn't put all the blame on that, it WAS on curran deck, so their sound was reflecting crazily off ulc, woody's, and 8th street (due to their overly massive volume of audio orgasm... what?). oh yeah, they're melodic pop punk, with a slight, slight, slight hint of a tinge of emo. they're still totally punk though. check out "washed hands" and "drawing board" on their mp3.com site.

i can't talk about chicago bands without mentioning my personal favorite 15 minutes late. yeah, they toured with jinxpack last spring. that's why i said jinxpack played a free concert... yeah, that last paragraph. anyway, for those of you with a softer taste in music, here's an amazing emo punk band. their latest album that i know of, "bitter ends... new beginnings" is totally off the chain. 4 songs, each amazing in their own right. "misdirection" - the most emo-sounding song in the chord structure and vocals on the verge of screaming, but not screaming... if you understood that at all... i suck at english. ok, try #2: the typical emo screaming borders on hardcore screaming, but is more melodic. the vocalist sings loudly with emotion and a scratchiness that is like singing-screaming. yes. that's what i meant to say. or not. "brilliant lives" is a beautiful acoustic piece about... oh yeah, it's emo, so it must be about sad stuff - lost love. "last kiss goodnight" is supposed to be their most popular song i think. it's a good song, but not their best in my opinion... "michigan calling" is the rock out song on the album. need i say more?

ok, don't laugh, but i'm getting into japanese rock music. the asian-conversion has begun... the brilliant green was apparently one of the top 10 bands in the world minus the USA in 2001, as ranked by time magazine. but i can't verify that. it's just hearsay. but they are very good. check out "forever to me." slow rock stuff. yes. sexy female voice. i like. i like a lot.

haha, new paragraph, but still japanese music, sucka... SIAM SHADE!!! hell yeah, they sound like a result of the worldwide influence of the 80's metal hair band phenomena, except without all the cheesiness of the obligatory love ballads and power riffs. ok, siam shade has those, but it's japanese, so it's ok. their sound is very... i don't know, 80's metal describes it, but it's not that... it's like conservative asian metallica with technical skills. the guitarist(s) are pinch harmonic crazy. they are insane. i love it, every time i hear one, i almost piss myself, it's that good. ok. jump up and get down song: "passion" or "1999." get down and get up (and get down and get up and get down and get up and get down and get up... you get my point) song aka get your groove on song: "love." what could be more straight forward advertising?

ok ok, 1 more japanese band: x japan. i've only listened to parts of some songs, and i don't know any song names, but i do know so far, they are decently heavy rockers. we'll see...

ahh, i think i should sleep now. i have a shitload of work to do before this hectic CULTURESHOCK weekend. i expect you all to be there. check out the flyer on the website. free cultural performances and FOOD saturday evening, finished off with a party at the deux plex, ladies free before midnight. no excuses!

before i go, music i'm listening to: titofelix - what went wrong, alkaline trio - the metro, beatles - while my guitar gently weeps, six ways - creep (live on WREK), all that japanese stuff i blabbed on about, tiger army - outlaw heart, jinxpack - soap opera, candelbox - cover me, 15 minutes late - jeanni, the last chimpunx album and of course, all the SHOTGUN MORNING stuff... oh ohoh, and sahara hotnights. my friend told me about how his ideal chick band was basically this band from sweden. yeah... definitely better than the donnas. but i'll talk more about the music later...

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